Well, the title says it all. I’ve gained weight. To be exact, around 40 pounds in one year. And it’s forced me to face some crippling insecurities and deeper issues that desperately need to be unleashed. I lived in my smaller body for three years. While my motivation to lose weight originated from wanting to … Continue reading I’VE GAINED WEIGHT & I’M OKAY
About a month ago, I had to be very honest with myself. I was not feeling like myself, I was constantly unmotivated at work. I ignored it at first, but then decided to actually sit down & take note of what my body/mind was trying to tell me. I said to myself - “Set your ego … Continue reading TO SET LIMITS OR RISK A BURNOUT?
My mantra for June is ‘What Will Be, Will Be.’ After having one of my May goals as 'Noticing More Opportunities', I quickly realized I was having a bad case of the 'What If's' every time a new opportunity popped up. For example, if I got excited by a new job application, I would think 'what … Continue reading HELLO JUNE: MONTHLY REFLECTIONS & INTENTIONS
This year I’ve been meditating everyday for 20 minutes; but sometimes there’s just NO time. I’ve found if I don’t do anything to create a momentary everyday, I become easily triggered, stressed, and anxious. And this is where “moderated meditation” comes in – I know, not a great name, but it’s all I could think … Continue reading INCORPORATE MEDITATION INTO YOUR EVERYDAY
One of the most difficult things about change is that we must let go of who we currently are – whether it be a habit, routine, mood, or viewpoint. Momentarily, we feel lost as we establish a new way of doing things. These past two weeks I’ve really been trying rise above the stuff that’s … Continue reading GETTING UN-STUCK MAY REQUIRE CHANGE
Sometimes things happen in life that we don't want to deal with. They’re complicated & sticky. It can be easy to stick our heads in the ground, let it sort itself out, and pretend we don’t need to have a conversation. We all know that is not the best way to do it, but there’s … Continue reading TALKING BRAVE: DIFFICULT CONVERSATIONS
Another month and another day to keep on keepin' on. I looked at last year's intentions & I feel like I've become a different person. Is this a period of growth? Figuring things out? I'm just infuriated. I know the only person who can make change is me, but why can't I just DO IT. … Continue reading HELLO MAY: MONTHLY REFLECTIONS & INTENTIONS
This past weekend, I was home visiting my parents. Now, my mom is my best friend, my ride-or-die, but whenever she asks these four little words I cringe: HOW ARE YOU DOING? I know it's coming from love. She wants to be a support system, a shoulder to cry on, offer reassurance & just make … Continue reading YOU ARE NOT A BURDEN
This weekend I did some reflecting, a lot of reflecting actually. I poured my soul out to my therapist, mother & friends. I had a breakthrough in 'why I do the things I do.' It was eye-opening, surprising, and allowed to to connect-the-dots in certain areas of my life. And it brought a lifelong curiosity … Continue reading DOES ‘EVERYTHING HAPPEN FOR A REASON’?
I guess the internet is the perfect place to be vulnerable, so here I go. I'm currently laying down on my living room floor, making a body imprint on my shag rug, still in my pajamas from last night. I feel bloated, heavy, ashamed, pathetic, and misunderstood. It's no secret that fear and shame, by … Continue reading VULNERABILITY AMID THE STRUGGLE